Schooling, Appointments and Showings, OH MY!

Well, first of all, let me start by saying that my life is a complete mess at the moment. Not only am I juggling school, doctor's appointments and trying to keep the house in order for showings so it will sell, I am now a "single parent" until the house sells.

I sent Donnie to Michigan, in a move I question at times, to find employment and temporary housing until my house here in Ohio sells. This means that along with everything else I am trying to do, I also am taking care of a one year old little boy completely alone. Normally, this wouldn't be an issue, as I am normally the one who cares for him anyhow unless I am ill, but I never realized before how nice it was just to have Donnie here to help keep him distracted while I made his bottles or changed his diaper.

Schooling is taking up much more time and effort than I thought it would. I didn't realize that my chosen field, Paralegalism, meant learning a foreign language. With all of the latin terminology they use in law, I might as well be taking Japanese, because that is what it all seems to me. I don't have Donnie here to help me with the terminology lessons, so I am trying to memorize all the terms completely on my own, without anyone to help me by running flash cards with. I plan to make myself some tests to do until I memorize all the terms.

Giovanni has a doctor appointment tomorrow, for his one year check up, and I am curious to see how his weight and height have changed since the last appointment. He is now eating "big boy food" almost exclusively, with just small amounts of baby fruit filling in. I can definitely feel a change in him when I hold him. I am hoping that he is over the 18 pound mark, which he should be without a doubt, and hopefully closer to the 20 pound mark. He sits completely unassisted now, and will stand up and walk if he has something to hold onto to steady himself. He is just getting so big.

My house, which has been on the market six weeks now, still hasn't sold. I am hoping it won't be much longer. I need it to sell so that Donnie and I can get our new house in Michigan and get it ready for winter. It gets colder up there much earlier than it does here, though only one state away, and we need to make sure the furnace is in good working order and get the storm windows and insulation installed. Also, I am trying to re-clean this house since Donnie left. Our room is a complete mess after going through and getting his stuff together so he could leave Tuesday night. I also need to re-clean Giovanni's room, because it has been a landing place for most of the displaced items in the house.

I am feeling completely overwhelmed, and have no one, and I do mean NO ONE to talk to about it. I can't talk to Donnie, as his not being here is part of why I feel so overwhelmed, because he will only get aggravated and upset and feel worse that he is gone. I can't talk to Ginger because she is here in the house, and it doesn't really help to have input about the situation from someone who is INSIDE the situation. I haven't felt so alone since my parents passed away.

Well, I am off of here. Sitting here blogging about my problems isn't going to solve them or get this room cleaned up any quicker. Wish me luck!