Lots of Stuff on My Mind

So, it's been a while since I've really gotten down and dirty and posted something meaningful to me. Well, here I go.

First of all, the online store is up and running. Why the FUCK aren't you all over there shopping instead of being on here?!? I need you all to order lots and lots of stuff!

On another note, there are two people in my life who are dealing with doctors right now. Won't be naming names here, but I am hoping both of them will be fine. I will be here for both no matter what, but I am hoping neither will need me in that capacity. One has a chance of lung cancer, and the other has issues with Blood Platelets, which may be a sign of bone marrow issues. I know I don't tell either of you enough, but I honestly do care about and love ya both. I need both of ya in my life to keep me crazy enough to be sane!

Okay, enough of the sappy shit.

What is going on with the fucking gas prices? I mean, I go get gas at like, 2pm on Monday, and by 9am Tuesday gas has gone up by $0.48! That is just stupid! It is the same gasoline that was in there yesterday, so it should be the same price. I think they should only be allowed to up the price when they refill their tanks! I hope the gasoline industry goes under and all of us decide to walk or ride bikes everywhere from now on, or come up with a better fuel system!

Grocery prices are on the rise, again! Almost $3.50 for a fucking gallon of milk! Are you serious?!? Next thing I know they will be charging $10 for a stamp to mail your bills in, $100 for the envelopes... It is completely ridiculous how our prices are getting so inflated, and for no apparent reason.

I'm trying to find a nice part-time or full-time job to earn some extra cash. Of course, no one wants to hire someone with less than perfect credit. Um, Hello? I was on disability due to complications in pregnancy for a little over 4 months, then had to leave my job since they were demanding more overtime than I could possibly do with having a premature infant. Then, on top of all that, my insurance I had at the time is refusing to pay some of the bills because they filed the paperwork incorrectly for coverage on my son, and don't seem to know how to fix it. Giovanni, my 9 month old, was born July 8, they have his starting coverage date as August 1st. The City told me I have to call the insurance company to fix this, the insurance company said human resources needed to fax them the corrected paperwork. The City HR department is refusing to do so, so I'm being hit with almost a month's worth of NICU bills, adding up to over $200,000.00! That is just what the insurance is refusing to pay ANY part of.. I still have another $80,000 in bills that the insurance did pay part of that I am responsible for. Yet, every job seems to think I should still have perfect credit! Yeah... right!

I have been thinking about the past a lot again. It always gets me into trouble. I keep thinking how things would be different if I had done this or that differently. Would I be happy? Would I be in jail? Who would I be with? Would I have my son? It still amazes me how one small, seemingly insignificant detail could theoretically change the entire course of your life!

Ugh... I have got to go take a shower. I'm off for tonight!